Lots to Tell!!!!!!!

Well everyone...after waiting for 2 1/2 weeks, I finally found out that I got a part in the Vagina Monologues! I'm oh so excited! I will be doing a monologue called "The Vagina Workshop". This will be the first year that they are having someone young do it...which means it will bring something totally new to the part! The show goes up in March at The Max Bell Theatre (Theatre Calgary's stage), and we will be doing 4 performances. YIPEE!!!!!! Check out the link to see what the Vagina Monologues and V-Day are all about!

Last night I had a relaxing night...went out to dinner with the "fam" then drove the boys home so Dee and Billy could go see a show. Put the boys to bed, then made myself dessert, sat and watched "Serendipity" and had a glass (or more) of wine. I went to bed at a reasonable hour...around midnight, but kept having all these ideas float through my head about this play that I'm writing. I got up, turned on the light, and began to write...I was up till almost 3am! YIKES! I'm so inspired though and super excited about where the story is going...I won't give details, as I want people to come see it for themselves, but what I will tell you is that the fact and fiction is beginning to mold wonderfully together! My next step now, as I have a pretty solid base, is to contact One Yellow Rabbit again and give them a complete synopsis and vision for the play. Enough hopefully to make them want to do a co-pro with me! I'm planning hopefully to put the show up at the end of next January (2008)....SO EXCITING!!!!!!!

Well...that's all for now...as always more to come I'm sure!

New Happenings

Well hey there...Sunday was DJD's Dance Class Marathon...10 hours of workout! I took Ballet, Belly Dance, West African, Brazilian, Modern, a core/stretch class, Afro Funk, Indonesian, Salsa and a Yoga/massage class. 2 Days later I hurt quite a bit (in an "I worked hard" kind of way). I'm sort of lopsided...my right calf muscle, my left bum, my core, my right peck, and my neck...hahaha.

I finally had my meeting with Paul Ritchie (Talent Inc.) yesterday, and because of a recommendation from a guy I auditioned for he has decided to sign me! YAY! So, I am awaiting a contract for signature, and then I will be hopefully starting to get work. I will be on his principle roster (not background). I know I will probably be getting some background work, but he knows that I'm actually an actor, and not just in it to be on TV.

So that's my news for now! Lots more to come I'm sure.

Nightmares

I had an unbelievably real seeming nightmare this morning...it left me with knots in my back, a feeling of nausea and on the verge of tears.

We were at a hotel somewhere off in the mountains, and invited to some gathering in room 435. Only there was no 4th floor. There was a button in the elevator, so no one actually knew. The elevator shot through the glass, left me with a gash on my forehead and landed us on the roof. He the preceded to take all of the children and put them in his van, then somehow transported us all to a different location where he shot babies one by one as well as any of the rest of us who tried to escape. At one point my friend spoke up and said something really profound...enough to distract him long enough for us both to scramble into his van and hit the gas. There were no other vehicles at the site, so we were sure to be safe. For some reason though, instead of driving straight to the police we drove down a driveway and went into an abandoned house...WHY WOULD I DO THAT???? WHY WOULDN'T I KEEP DRIVING?! For some reason the house started to move, almost like an earthquake and I tumbled out of the house and hopped on a bike which had no lights so I couldn't see a thing. I abandoned the bike and ran to the next farm house and pressed the door bell numerous times. I knew the people that owned the house so when they saw the frightened look on my face they immediately let me in. By this time I had lost my friend, and I had expected the worse for her. We called the police immediately and could hear shrieks of infants being slaughtered. I knew if was only moments before he would come looking for me. we ran around the house trying to lock every opening...but before we got to the large screen door, he appeared in the house...gun raised and ready to shoot. It seemed that only the kids and me were worried enough to put our hands in the air...the others still scrambled around until they noticed he was there. He took me by the arm and said "maybe this will teach you"...as he fired a shot through my frail wrist.

I tried to wake myself and keep myself from thinking about the dream, but all I could think was "how stupid of you...why didn't you run into the dark bushes?...he never would have found you. Why didn't you drive to the police right away?"

I came upstairs soon after and asked Dee for a hug. I needed a little comfort as silly as that sounds. As Dee left for work she saw the tears start to well up in my eyes and told me that thoughts that are anything but loving can't possibly be from God...so try to fight it off, brush it off...yes, that's what I need to do.

Thanksgiving and more...

Happy Thanksgiving all!

I spent a relaxing day yesterday with my Calgary family here at home. We had a pot luck style dinner...lots of yummy food! Greek Potatoes, Turkey, Veggies, stuffed mushrooms, Sweet Potatoes...yummy dip with chips and delicious Pumpkin mousse pie with mom's zucchini loaf. Oh and don't forget the wine! I slept today...till 11am! What is that? Can't usually do that.

I had an audition for the Vagina Monologues on Wednesday which went great...here's hoping I get in! I have also been commissioned by my mother to adapt her short novel into a play...enough to hopefully pay for my entire first season of RAW Productions! Woot Woot! I'm looking into a couple of opportunities to paint murals either for trade or money. I had a little mishap with my meeting with a prospective Agent, so hopefully I will be meeting with him this week sometime. I am participating in DJD's Dance Class Marathon this Sunday...10 hours of mind blowing classes. So looking forward to that! I have been taking a Jazz class there which I LOVE! It's great to still have that part of my life! I'm tossing around 3 plays right now, and seem to be concentrating on one in particular that will be introduced sometime next fall. I'm cutting my hours down at Community come November as it is too crazy to be working that much with everything else going on. Rehearsals for Halo are going well. The actors will be off book this week (which means more work for me)...and things are coming along. I'm starting a sort of small group...basically just me and two other girls. We're going to get together once a week just to keep each other accountable and support each other.

That's all for now...

Why are we always trying to be something we're not?

This picture shows how far some people will go to fit an image they have in their head of what "PERFECTION" is. I can't say I'm much different. I struggle with this every day. I know that media is a huge part of the reason we as women especially feel that we need to be thinner to fit the image of "BEAUTY". All I can think of when I see this picture is how ugly skinny really is. We were not built to look like this! I wonder how she even has enough muscle to stand up let alone move around.

I am writing today because I am at that place of total confusion as to where and what exactly I should be doing. I know this Company is my future...but now all the little details are where I'm getting caught up in. A thought: Maybe I'm focusing too much on trying to find out where each decision will take me that I'm missing the answers right in front of my face. Hmmm...This is something that I struggle with all the time. The little decisions (usually involving money of some sort) are the toughest for me: Venues, marketing, fundraising, paying people, keeping my job, paying my bills...the usual. I know that I have not chosen an easy path...but when it comes down to it, I'm not happy doing anything else (I am reminded of this every time I get up to go to work). I want to be content in letting the answers come when it's time...but isn't this one of the hardest things?

PATIENCE...a virtue I try to work towards every single day.