Iridescence

How do we fight the darkness
How do we find our way back
I want so much to fly
Fly away from this world
To see it from a different view
Soar through an endless sky

Iridescent lights like dizziness
Ready to capture me
Ready to lead me away

Reckless abandonment
That is what I want
I want to do something wrong
I want to say its okay
I don’t want to care anymore
To be ignorant…bliss

Iridescent lights like dizziness
Ready to capture me
Ready to lead me away

I don’t want to know the truth
But who would I be then
Living in a world that doesn’t exist
Only spins around me like…
Iridescent lights like dizziness
Ready to capture me
Ready to lead me away

Control VS Responsibility

Concept I am struggling with...How do I give over ultimate control and still know when I need to be responsible for daily things? Ultimately fear of failure usually holds me back...but even more so when I don't really know what I'm getting myself into. Humbling to think that really when it comes down to it, I have no idea...When am I in line with the ultimate plan? How do I know? How do I give up control when I know I'm going to fail in surrendering? GRACE...I guess that is the be all end all. I am human and not expected to be perfect...only expected to try to the best of my ability. Sometimes though, I use being human as an excuse for screwing up. I take advantage of forgiveness and live for myself other than for God. Frustrating to think that perfection can never be achieved and that we are bound to fail over and over again.

NEWS

Alrighty all you curious folks (few I'm sure!)...Well I went to Coffee & 'Scream last Thursday and basically got hired on the spot...had an awesome chat with the owner, and got a great feeling about the place. Nothing was for sure though untill she confirmed training on SUNDAY! So...I had to give notice to Community VERY last minute... so you get the whole picture, I brought in this letter on Monday (I was supposed to work there the next morning but was going to work at C&C that day):

November 6, 2006

ATTN: Café Manager

Dear Richard,

I regret to inform you that I have been offered a position elsewhere and therefore this letter serves as notice of my resignation effective immediately. I understand this may come as a surprise at a time that you are so short staffed, but due to the urgent needs of this recent offer I will only be available to work Fridays for the remainder of this month.


Sincerely,

Juliana Marko

As you can see, because I knew of the lack of staff in the cafe, I offered them my services on the one day that was possibly the worst...Fridays. Tuesday, I received this message on my phone:

"Hi Juliana this is Richard from Community Natural Foods calling to let you know that we will NOT need you to come in on Friday and will be putting your "termination" papers through right away..."

SO if you can imagine that in the most pissed off voice...hahaha...obviously he took it personal and is now going to have to pay for it. I am planning on speaking with head office about his behavior towards his employees, so they know the reason people keep leaving the cafe.

YIKES! On a super good note...

I LOVE my new job! The people are so nice an appreciative, and supportive...encouraging; pretty much everything Richard was NOT! It's a great atmosphere, super close to home and to the boys' school and right near Marissa's house and my rehearsal space! YAY!!!!!

Lots of things going on as usual!

Rocky Mountain College is performing "Salt Water Moon" tomorrow night and Saturday at the Easterbrook Theatre in the Curry Barracks here in Calgary...

QUENCHED PURE PERFORMANCE (Dee and friends) will be performing in "Raise a Joyful Noise" at the Jack Singer Concert Hall on Sunday evening (6pm).

If you're around come check them out...they're sure to be great!

I am currently writing an original play plus working on adapting a short novel...thinking about possibly doing both next year...who knows:)

This post was kind of all over the place, but that's sort of how I'm living right now so...HA!

Skipping Out

Well...as awful as it is I'm not going to work today...I have a cold...but that's not the whole reason. For those of you who don't live in Calgary...it's been winter here for the past week!!! YIKES...I have to take 2 buses to get to work plus walk about 15 minutes...in the cold! Anyhoo...I was driving the boys to school yesterday and drove by this shop called Coffee 'N Scream...it's a coffee shop mostly for parents, and there's a kids fun room. They had a sign out that said hiring part time...SURPRISED? GOOD WAGES! So long story short...I'm going down there today to apply. There's a bus right in front of my house that stops right in front of Coffee 'N Scream, so I wouldn't have to do any walking! So here's hoping I get the job. My boss Richard at Community is probably the least emotionally intelligent man I know. Both me and the other girl got yelled at on Tuesday...doesn't really make the work environment very good does it? I mean...I know that most "JOBS" I will have I probably won't enjoy fully, but if the people are nice, it makes it bearable...plus the whole taking 10 minutes to get there is a real plus next to a whole hour!!!! Please pray that this works out...I applied for another job, but never heard back, so I'm really hoping for this one.