Well well well. What an insane life I live. here I am, a few weeks past my last blog, and a zillion things have happened. I rehearsed my heart out for a show, I worked overtime, babysat for a few different families, said hello again and goodbye to my dear friend Marissa, shot two bit parts in very different films (one Disney, one independent), took a few of my acting classes, finished the first draft of my one-woman show, threw a party that took way too much money that I didn't have, visited with my parents, snuck in a few dates with friends, some cleaning and kid-watching, re-introduced myself to my bike, volunteered at a Bingo for DJD, saw Marissa's show twice, received my US passport application in the mail with some things that went wrong, fixed those things, changed banks, sent off my royalty cheque to Playwrights Guild of Canada, and somehow was able to watch 2 seasons of Gilmore Girls in my spare time (hahaha...more like time I should have been sleeping, besides today since I was sick and home from work and acting).
I think I really needed today. Just to chill and be a hermit in my room. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE what I do...it's just that sometimes, I like to have a day when I don't have to do anything. Which hardly happens unless I'm sick, because even on my one day off a week, even seeing people is sort of an obligation, even though I enjoy spending time with friends.
Since Marissa left, I've been down...realizing that it's going to be a year until I see her next, and that when that time comes that I have to leave so many people I love behind. It's going to be an interesting year. A full year to put it mildly. I have my two shows, then Dee has a show, then hopefully I'll be entering festivals in the Spring, and trying to make extra money to save for Chicago. Chicago. I'm actually moving to Chicago. That's a huge step. I'm taking a risk. I'm jumping off the cliff, and hoping I land somewhere moderately comfy.
Risk...that's what life is all about right? Risk...if you don't, you'll never really know. And how can you ever truly love if you don't risk being hurt? You can't. That's it, that's what I have to remember.