Jumping The Gun

So for some reason I like to jump the gun on thinking I'm over something, or that I'm perfectly alright, when really, I'm just denying myself the time I need to work through things. Yesterday I was completely convinced that I had made my way out of the huge pit I dug myself into earlier in the week...today...not so sure. My emotions seem to be all over the place. Mostly I just have to get over some pride issues and call someone, like I chose to today. And what a difference that makes! To have someone just to chat and hang with that won't coddle you, but won't discourage you either. I know that I've always struggled with MOTIVATION, but it is becoming more and more apparent every day. EXAMPLE: Meisner Class...haven't been in two weeks. Have found every excuse in the book NOT to memorize my scene. WHAT IS THAT???!!! And now that we only have one class left, it's like "well how far could we get with this scene anyway in one class?" I'm afraid. I know that. But I don't exactly know why. I was going to try and answer that, but I have no idea where to start. hmmm...thought for the day...WHY AM I AFRAID?