As always things are always changing!
Since I returned home from Illinois in November my spirits have been quite down. I was really depressed. My heart is just not in Calgary anymore, and I've been feeling that I don't belong here. When I expressed this to Deirdre, her initial reaction was a sort of "told you so" since she had a feeling back in June when I told her my plans to move that I wouldn't last another year. After that she asked me what my reasons were for staying in Calgary until June, and I couldn't come up with a good enough answer. So needless to say I decided that I would leave at the end of February. Why February? Well there are a few things that I wanted to do before I moved, and it didn't seem doable to do in less than 8 weeks. So, here I am preparing for the next season of my life to start. Even though I am definitely ready to leave, there is a lot of emotional work I need to do to prepare to leave so many wonderful people. This move embodies the definition of what I always hope to do in life: RISK. You have to make those big leaps if you want to move forward. This is just one of my jumps.
I look forward to the next chapter in my life...I am so blessed!
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